It's Monday. Monday. It is an off day for me. Those of you that know me, know that Monday is my day. Monday is my wingman. Monday is what I look forward to. My soulmate, so to speak. Monday is not going so well for me this morning and I have nothing to attribute that to. A bad dream? Possibly. I did have one. I woke up at 0530 this morning shook and told myself I wasn't going to let that ruin my day. LET IT GO. That's my new adaptation toward those things I cannot control. Just let it go, Shellie. Relax, let it go and smile in the end.
Funny thing is that I was just thinking last night how I rarely have dreams now that I take the melatonin. Well, at least I don't remember the dreams if I have them. Until last night. -_-
I finally did go back to sleep and when I woke up went and picked up my groceries for baking this week and headed home, with a pounding headache and that dark cloud lurking over me. If I had a dollar for every time I told myself, out loud mind you, to LET IT GO, I could call in dead for a week. I am finding it is hard to let go of something that you don't know you are holding.
Got dinner put together for my crew tonight and it will go in the oven soon. Bed made, laundry taken to the basement, dishes done and kitchen cleaned, dogs played with both inside and outside and this headache was about to rupture through my skull. I thought if I could just relax it would go away so I tried that. It lasted about 15 minutes and I started to get sleepy. Back to bed. That lasted 59 minutes. Exactly. It's not every day you get to make your bed twice!
Fine. Take a couple of Ibuprofen. You win. I took the hottest bath I could sit in and made myself just relax. I did not take my phone and I actually shut it down for the duration. No music. No dogs (because they have squirrels treed in the back yard and I am loving every minute of this quietness today) and nothing to worry about except how to make the day better for me. First I had to find out what was making it bad. I'm still working on that. That dark cloud is still there. Not as dark as this morning so I must be gaining. And the headache is almost gone but I can feel it lurking.
Don't get confused on the dark cloud being a black cloud. I don't plan on being one of those at work tonight. No siree!! Last night I just wanted an easy going night and what did I do? Opened up a can of worms. Poor Tricia in the next county... I think I spilled some on her too! But we got through it and nobody was physically harmed in the process. I'm pretty sure that if someone were to be harmed, it would be this girl right here! Let's not hurt Shellie please.
I was able to make myself a cheese sandwich for lunch and not one dog sat there to judge me and guilt me into giving them their piece.
I'm pretty sure I had more material to go with this blog and suddenly it's gone. Apparently I have too much going on in my head.
DO NOT LET WORTHLESS PEOPLE RENT SPACE IN YOUR HEAD!
LET IT GO!
DO YOUR JOB AND GO HOME!
AND REPEAT UNTIL IT'S ETCHED IN YOUR BRAIN!
I have to work with Dana tonight. I almost said Poor Dana but she did send me a snapchat where she was drinking a Bang and that my friends, is usually a recipe for disaster. Now that I am drinking less and less energy drinks we could be dangerous.
How do I get out of this funk?
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